This Season will be Different

It all begins again tonight. The Cincinnati Bengals will take the field for the first time of the 2016 season and I am SO excited!! I feel like time goes so slow when there is no football, but then I blink my eyes and we're back at it all over again. Although it's just preseason for a few more weeks, there is nothing better than seeing the orange and black uniforms back out on the field again. I am SO ready for football, although this season? It's going to look just a little bit different for me.

While I should be running around the stadium like a crazy person today, sweating my tail off, dealing with confused season ticket members and just general chaos... I won't be. I'll be sitting at home with my family, in my comfy Bengals attire instead of business clothes. This will be the first season in seven years that I'll be "just a fan" because I've decided to stay home full-time with our little boy.

Maybe I should type that again for some clarification, or maybe just for my own sake. I've decided to stay home full-time. I quit my job. I'm so thankful for the ability and option to stay home with T, but it's definitely not what we had in mind just a couple of months ago so I'm still coming to terms with it all. My boss was incredibly supportive and happy for us but of course sad to let me go- which meant a lot. It's a bittersweet time in my life for sure. I definitely won't miss a lot of crazy/crappy things about my job- but I'm going to miss the people I've shared so much of life with over the span of seven years. 


Last week I officially cleaned out my office and said some really hard good-byes to so many wonderful people. It's tough when you know you're making the right decision but you're letting go of something you also loved. When I started maternity leave the plan was always to come back to work but once Jared and I sat down and really thought about the logistics of it all, we started to doubt our decision. After many long talks, countless prayers and a zillion tears we came to decide that what makes the most sense right now for our family is for me to be at home.

This job was my first real job after college and I never imagined how long I'd stay there or all I'd get to experience as a result of the organization. It's hard to "give up" something I've put countless hours into and something I thought would always be a part of my life. I'm so thankful for my time there and closing this chapter of my life is terrifying yet exciting. So this is my new life adventure! I'm a SAHM for right now and I don't have a clue what life without working a football season is like but I'm ready to find out.

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  1. SHUT UP. I am so thrilled for you, Erin!!! I mean, if you went back to work I would be thrilled for you too, but good for you! That is SUCH a hard decision to make. I knew that's what I wanted to do beyond a shadow of a doubt, and I still cried when I quit my job. You will love the SAHM life, as challenging as it can be. And I'm only a couple hours away if you ever need anything :)

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  2. You've got this momma!!!! So incredibly proud of you for this decision (and still would've been if you'd decided to go back to work!!), I know you put so much prayer into it though! So excited for you to have the chance to stay at home with Tyler! AND maybe now you can GO to a home game as a fan?! Yay! Love you lady!!

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  3. I know this is a HUGE change for you. But as someone who was very much a working gal and LOVED HER job... you are going to love this time with Tyler. You are going to thrive on levels you never know needed attention. I promise you that this is going to be the best "job" you've ever had! I'm here for you to lean on. I've been doing it for almost 4 (!!!) years and never imagined being where I am now with my abilities, my confidence, my love of being a stay at home Momma.

    And now we can really meet for coffee :)

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  4. What a bittersweet decision that must have been to make! But I am sure you have lots of wonderful memories ahead with your new little coworker! :)

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  5. Congratulations on making the decision that is best for you and your family - best wishes to you!

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  6. Congratulations!!!!! I think you will absolutely thrive in your new role as a SAHM!!! My oldest is already four and time just FLIES, so I'm all for being a SAHM!!! I returned to work when she was 3 (and her little sis was almost 2!) which was definitely good for me at the time. Now, I'm still working FT but I work from home often, so the girls are only in daycare for half days. However, we are expecting baby #3 in October...and I do not know what to do!!!! I am so torn over this decision, as I'm sure you were, too! I think I'll end up doing what you did and planning on returning, but obviously not making a firm decision until I have the baby and see what it's like having three little ones (I may be counting down the days to return to work LOL).

    Congrats again!!! Happy to be following your journey! :)

    -Sarah www.thefrugalmillionaireblog.com

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  7. Wow, congrats! Enjoy that time with little man and just relaxing in general for you. First time in awhile, huh :)

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  8. Wow, congrats! Enjoy that time with little man and just relaxing in general for you. First time in awhile, huh :)

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  9. Congratulations! I can only imagine how you're feeling but you and Jared know what's best for your family and you can do this! So happy for you!

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  10. At the risk of sounding like a total creeper, I have read your blog for a while and I know we live in the same area. When I became a SAHM it was kinda lonely and tiring for a while, admittedly, so I'd love to invite you to check out the local MOPS group! We meet twice a month at Amelia Nazarene church starting September 6. We have free childcare so you get a break for a few hours, free breakfast, crafts and conversation. Check out our facebook page at Ameliamops.com. Again, hope I'm not being a weirdo, I just know how hard the transition can be and it's nice to hang out with other moms!

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    1. Jenny! I couldn't find your email address to respond directly but thank you SO MUCH for mentioning this! I will def check out the FB page! :)

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    2. Great! Love to see you there! :)

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  11. Everyone has to do what is the best for them and their family, even when the decision is hard or sudden. All the good thoughts to you my friend!

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  12. I am so excited for you!!! :) I know it had to be a tough decision but I am sure it is one that you won't regret.

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  13. Congratulations, Erin :) What a blessing to be able to stay at home and love on your little guy.

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  14. Oh my, this is a surprise this morning!!! At least football season will always hold a special place in your heart and you can just partake in all the fun now without all the stress!!! Congrats!!!! Such a blessing to be able to stay at home :) I am sure that T will be forever grateful to have his mommy there!

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  15. Congrats on your new chapter! I went back to work for about 6 months after I had my first and it really didn't make sense for us logistically and for what we wanted for our family . I quit and have never looked back . Its an incredible blessing to have the option to choose what is going to work for your family . Enjoy !

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  16. I'm so happy for you Erin!! It's going to be amazing! :)

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  17. Congrats girl. I'm sure you'll miss it but I bet it'll be so much more fun to have your weekends and holidays free this year!

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  18. I am SO excited for you! This sounds wonderful, even if a little bittersweet. Enjoy your time with your boy!

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  19. Congrats on becoming a SAHM! It sounds like it was so hard to say goodbye to all of your friends at work, but like you said, at the end of the day it's all about what's right for you and your family! I bet that it's going to be nice to relax at home during the holidays though!

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  20. WHAAAAAAAT?!?! No way!! I cannot believe you quit! I'm glad that you clarified cuz it didn't sink in the first time. Wow! I mean, it's great that you are able to do that & want to do that for your lil family. Congrats, mama & enjoy the football season as a fan, it's pretty dang great. :)

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  21. I am SO happy for you Erin!! I can identify 100% with you right now (minus the baby, of course) because next week is my last week at the League. I am have been here nine years so definitely bittersweet! It will certainly be a strange year!

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  22. Oh wow! I am so proud/excited for you and your family. I know this wasn't a lighthearted decision, and that y'all spent a lot of time and prayer over it. What a great feeling to know you are fully supported either way!!!! Praying this new transition goes smoothly and that you enjoy it!! Hoping you enjoy this season as a fan (not that you haven't always been a fan lol) with your little family!!!! Y'all are too cute!

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  23. Oh sweet Erin! Big hugs to you (and your baby!) during all of this! What a big decision, but it really does sound like you all made the thoughtful, faith-based right decision! Enjoy every second of it :)

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  24. I know that this must have been a very hard decision, but you're a good mama for thinking of your family first! And I know that Tyler will need extra time with you this fall to teach him all about the Bengals!

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  25. congrats girl - i can't imagine how fabulous and awful you feel all at once. what a bittersweet decision. good to know this season won't be stressful at least!!

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  26. YAYAYAYAY! So proud and happy for you, love! Congrats!!!

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  27. Congratulations on your new, exciting adventure! So glad that you get to stay home with your sweet baby boy, but I understand the difficulty of that bittersweet decision you made (with quitting a job you love, not the baby part, obviously ;)) Happy Weekend, friend!

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  28. I am so so so thrilled for you!!! We are 10 months into this SAHM gig and you will absolutely love it! It is hard sometimes and desperately lonely (haha), but I really do think you will love it. It is so fun being home and seeing all of Ella's milestones and sending Tim fun pictures and videos. I really don't think you'll regret it. We should get together. :) holls_y@hotmail.com

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  29. NO WAY. I'm so excited for you, because you've decided what's best and you're actually able to do it, but I know that it will be hard too. It's a blessing AND a sacrifice.

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  30. Yayayay!! I know this decision didn't come lightly and I'm just glad that you both are happy with it!! :)

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  31. I can imagine that it wasn't the easiest decision you both had to make, but a decision that is best for your family. I know that others seem to think of it as doing nothing, but I know my mom was busy from sun up to sun down. You'll find a happy balance.

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  32. Super late reading this, but holy COW! I know that had to be a hard decision, but congratulations on taking that step and doing what's right for you and Jared and baby T! Such a different football season for you this year!

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  33. Wow, what a big change. Good luck to you!

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  34. Wow! I bet this is such an emotionally-charged time and decision for you. Best of luck as you try this season out as "just a fan" ;) though I'm sure you'll come to feel happy and confident you've made the right decision for your family. Enjoy these days!

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  35. I'm sure it's so bittersweet! What a blessing to get to be able to make it work to stay home with T though. You will treasure this time I'm sure of it! Best of luck to you!

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  36. Wow, what an exciting change for your family! All changes take time getting used to. Hopefully you'll find parts of your new role that you enjoy and fulfill you in different ways. Good luck momma!

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  37. I am just catching up and OMG I am so excited for you!!! I know you loved your job but this new job is just so amazing being able to see that little one grow up right before your eyes and not missing those milestones. The adjustment takes a bit but you will love it. Im always here if you need to vent, cry to, or just talk!!! <3 you got this mama

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  38. Congrats to you!! Being home with your boy will be SO fantastic!

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  39. First of all, CONGRATS on having your baby! The last time I visited your blog you were slightly pregnant and now - baby is here and your staying home! woohoo. You're gonna love it. People call me crazy for wanting to do it - and it is! But it's fun. Now that my daughter is 5 years old, I'm glad I stayed home. I would have regretted it had I not.
    Anyways, I don't even know if you remember me :/ haha. I deleted my old blog because I said "I'll never blog again. I don't have time." and now that Melody is going to school this year, I have some "me time." I've missed blogging so much that now I can!

    - Whitney
    www.drinkcoffeeandblog.wordpress.com

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  40. Congratulations! I also never envisioned being a stay at home mom before I had kids. Then, once we had our first, it just made the most sense for me to be home with her and now them. It's such a sweet time that flies by - you'll be so glad you got to spend this time with your little man :)

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  41. I can't relate to being a mom yet, but I can relate to all the emotions that come with leaving a job! I had to leave my job to move 2 hours away when I got married in June, and haven't found a new job yet, which means I'm a stay-at-home wife for the time being. It's been a roller coaster of a journey!

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  42. WOW!!! Congratulations, this is such a big step for you. I'm sure it takes a lot of getting used to, but being there for all of Tylers moments will mean so much. That little guy will have endless memories of you as he gets older and it will be great. Understanding you love for football, this had to be difficult. There might be a time when you have the chance again- at least you were able to do it for 7 years!

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  43. Congrats on such a big transition! (And sorry I'm so behind on blog reading!) I have LOTS of thoughts on being a SAHM but am really just so happy for you because it's really, really awesome to be able to spend so much time with a baby when so many milestones are happening!

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