I haven't been quite ready to write this post so I've put it off, and even still I don't feel fully capable of putting into words what I'm feeling. I don't think anyone can ever prepare to write a post in memory of a loved one who has passed on. I know so many of you were praying for my Papaw and I appreciated those prayers so much. On April 16th, my dear grandpa left this Earth, much sooner than anyone anticipated and I miss him already.
As you can imagine it's been a sad, tough couple of weeks for me and my family. I feel like I didn't get to say goodbye, and that is what tears me up over and over again. I'm trying to cling to the fact that my Papaw is no longer in any pain. The cancer is no longer attacking his body and he's not suffering. It's a blessing in disguise, though hard to see it, I know it's the truth. And because of my faith I know I will see him again one day.
He supported his grandkids in anything and everything we did- I don't think he ever missed a sporting event, school play, band concert, award ceremony or graduation. He was always so proud of us. When I took my job with the Bengals I felt like there was just a little extra pride there in him... HE had a granddaughter working for that football team we all loved. He'd ask me what certain players were doing, he'd complain about an ugly loss; he'd want to know if I'd seen the coach lately and how I thought we'd do each season. I'm going to miss those talks.
I could go on for days about a million memories with my Papaw and I'd still never be able to truly describe how great he was. My dad led the funeral for him last week and he said everything so perfectly, it was a beautiful service and it honored my Papaw perfectly. Saying goodbye has been tough but it's also reminded me not to take anything for granted in life. I want to live out every day to the fullest, tell my family I love them more, be there for my friends at the drop of a hat and live a life he'd be proud of. RIP Papaw.
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