My brain has been a scattered mess to start this new year it seems. This is supposed to be the time for organization but my brain has definitely not gotten that memo. I kid you not, I think I got less than 2 hours of sleep last night simply because I couldn't shut my brain down. It was like my mind was on overdrive and totally spinning out of control no matter how many times I told myself to just fall asleep already! That also could have something to do with the fact that I had an evening cup of coffee, but that's up for debate.
My point is this- a scattered brain equals a scattered blog. This blog has been feeling like it's in limbo lately because I feel like I'm in limbo. I'm in that weird phase of life where I don't know where it's going and I also don't have some big life event/change going on. I've been working the same job for five-and-a-half years, so no news there. Our debt is paid off so Sallie & Perkins are taking some time off before deciding if/when they'll come back to visit the blog. There a dozen house projects we want to get started on but it's January, it's cold and it's easy to just want to snuggle up with movies rather than bust out the power tools and paint.
So that explains my accidental disappearance last week. Not that many (if any!) of you noticed, but I just couldn't make blogging happen last week. I sat down once or twice with a half-hearted attempt at it and realized nothing good comes of trying to force a post. Everything I typed felt like a lie, everything felt boring, I just wasn't feeling it. I've definitely been in a funk and just haven't felt like sharing a lot of what is going on. So, I simply didn't.
It was nice to semi-unplug from the world of blogging while I dealt with personal issues and feelings I had going on. While I like to be open on this blog, there is a time and place to share everything- but now it not that time. This post got pretty serious for a Monday, but please, no worrying about me or anything of that nature. I'm just in one of those weird seasons of life, I suppose. One that I know God will get me through if I can just hang on in the meantime.
A week "off" from blogging and most of social media definitely helped though. And you know what else helped? The spontaneous weekend getaway Jared planned- more on that, tomorrow :) Who knows if this blog post even made sense... but sometimes you just need to write and not care if it does.