Not If….When.

Yesterday was kindof a "blah" day at work. Not a bad one persay, just one that seemed to drag on forever, one full of tedious projects I had no interest in. That doesn't exactly set a person up to be excited about hitting the gym right after work. I texted Jared, trying to wimp out and cancel our gym date, but he convinced me we both really needed to go. I knew he was right, darnit. So as I finished up my work for the day, I snuck over to Facebook for some motivation.

Yes, folks. If you've ever gotten married and put on 30 pounds in 2 years? Go ahead and look at your wedding pictures and honeymoon pictures for some instant shame motivation. My jaw was literally on the floor, looking at how much I'd changed in two years!
Two years ago? I was confident in the way I looked. I didn't immediately look at every picture of myself and see my double chin or my clothes pulling too tight. What happened to that girl? This isn't a pity-post, or a post to have you disagree and say I look "fine" so don't let it seem that way. This is a post to say I've finally taken control again and it feels good emotionally, even when it doesn't feel good physically.

It's been a little over a month since Jared and I joined a gym and I'm sloooowly seeing some changes in my body. It's hard, because after a month I want the scale to just say I'm 20 pounds lighter and I want my old clothes to fit perfectly again. But it's not that easy, and it doesn't work that way. It was 2 years of bad habits that got me where I am today, so nothing will just change overnight. It's about making the effort, putting the time in at the gym and focusing on what I want out of this journey.

I want to be the best, healthiest version of myself I can be. I want to see what my body can do; I want to see my running improve. I want it, and I'll get it. It might take awhile, but I'm not stopping until I get there. Who's with me??

48 comments

  1. you are doing awesome. Way better than I could ;) but I am starting to eat healthier in preparation for the beach next year I have 9 mo to get back into my bikini!! So I love coming to your blog to see motivation! Well I love reading it daily anyway but you know ;)

    keep up the awesome work friend!

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  2. you go girl! you're motivating me to get back to working out, too! xoxo

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  3. This is all so true! You can do it!! Good luck!

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  4. Keep rocking lady you can do it. You are 100% correct, it takes time to put on weight and it takes time to watch it turn to muscle. You'll get to your goal, I KNOW YOU WILL!!!

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  5. You are kicking ass girl! Definitely inspirational!

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  6. I didn't gain 30 but I did gain 15 and it sucks. I think my body is telling me I'm just done BUT I still work out, try to watch my eating and all that. That is one thing that "scares" me whenever we have kids, losing the baby weight. But I hope to continue some kind of workout throughout and I hear that helps. Keep up the hard work - I know exactly where you're coming from!

    PS - Does your gym have classes? If so try one of them, you'll love it!

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  7. Aw, girl. Thanks for being so vulnerable and honest about this topic. It's such a touch one, but I think there is such power in being open about it. I have gained A LOT of weight since getting married. I am also working now to lose weight and set goals, etc. It is SUCH a slow process...especially once I hit my late 20's. Boo for aging. I want to look at my 26 year old self and be like, "PUT THE FRAPPUCINO DOWN!" ;)

    One thing that has helped me has been taking my measurements. On crappy days like today, I have to remember I've only lost 4 pounds o_0 ...but I have lost 7 inches.
    I woke up thinking about skipping the gym today...haha. Terrible, right? This was exactly what I needed! KEEP UP THE GREAT WORK! <3

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  8. All that matters now is what you're doing and you are rocking that gym flow!! keep up that hard work and you will see changes! there's plenty of motivation out there, starting with your awesome hubby! thanks for sharing your journey - so many of us can relate!! :)

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  9. Thank you, thank you! for keeping up the good work! Yesterday was a rest day in my program and I completely fell off the wagon in the food department.....I was frustrated after plateauing for 3.5 weeks. New day, new "start" Thank you for being positive about these difficult journeys!

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  10. So glad we're all in this together...I will always need the motivation of you and Caleb and Jared!! We WILL reach our goals, and cross that finish line together. You will be back where you want to be in no time, ma'am! LOVE YOU!

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  11. So true. This is always perfect motivation for me! You got this! =)

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  12. Oh friend, I am with you... the weight I've put on since our wedding/h-moon is ridonkulous! I need some more motivation though! I am totally lacking!!!

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  13. Love love love your attitude! And honesty... fitness goals and journeys are not all fun and rainbows like some people make them out to be. AND even better, you're beautiful in those pictures and your recent pictures! Proud of your determination.

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  14. Ive only been married TWO months and I can see a change it my body!! I need to HIT THE GYM!!!
    If you ever want to go for a hike or something on the weekends, let me know!!! :)

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  15. I'm trying to get weight off before our wedding in April. The fiancé and I have both put on the "relationship weight" over the past year and I hate everything I see about myself in the mirror now. Thank you for your inspirational and motivating post!!

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  16. You are doing great!!! I am in the same boat and trying to lose weight! We have been married going on 4 years in May and just got in a rut so I gotta lose it as well!! Thank you for this great post!

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  17. I know how you feel! I gained weight after my wedding too and I usually end up looking at old pictures of myself to remember why I'm trying to live healthier. Keep up the motivation!

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  18. That is great motivation...I look at old pictures and it makes me want to get back into shape. I've hopped back on the work out train and it's been so frustrating to see little to no changes. Other people have commented, but the scale and what I'm seeing isn't changing. You're doing awesome and it's great that you have your husby to keep you accountable. :D

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  19. It seems like you're definitely one step clsoer to where you want to be with that determined attitude. Thanks for putting this out there today. It's always nice when you can relate to others, and because of you, I think I'm now going to force myself to go the gym tonight!

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  20. You go lady! Keep up the good work! Us girls who have ZERO motivation admire your dedication <3

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  21. "after a month I want the scale to just say I'm 20 pounds lighter and I want my old clothes to fit perfectly again." Oh, yes. I am so with you on that. Why doesn't each workout knock 5 lbs off?

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  22. You. Are. Awesome. You're doing a great job, just plugging away at it - you'll get there. I think you're beautiful, both now and then! It's so important to feel good about yourself, and that includes the way you look. Keep at it honey! <3

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  23. You are amazing!! In no time your lifestyle changes will be second nature and before you know it you'll have reached your goal and be exactly who you want to be!! I'd say then you'll be "perfect"...but you already are!!

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  24. You looked great then, but you look great now too! :) It's awesome to have inspiration! I'm already pumped to starting losing baby weight after Baby Girl makes her arrival. You go, lady!

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  25. Oh my goodness I've been doing the same thing. I look at old pictures from college and I'm like holy hell when did this happen? I don't even look like the same person anymore. It happens to all of us I guess so you're not alone! Let's just be glad that we know what's up with our bodies and want to make some good changes :)

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  26. Hang in there! You can do it! You are so lucky that you have such a great partner to stand by your side the entire way and basically hold your hand!

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  27. I'm with you!!! I put on a ton of weight after I got married and then I got pregnant...Zoinks! While I love that little bundle of joy more than life itself, I definitely don't love what she did to my body. Haha! Thanks for being such a great motivator. :)

    Rachel
    www.midwesternandmarried.com

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  28. Keep it going! You got this girl!!!!

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  29. Woohoo! I love being able to see more motivation. I am currently losing weight that I put on over the years, and I have an amazing support system.
    Keep on going girl!♥

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  30. Oh yea, I feel that pain. When the comfort sets in in a relationship, unless you're on top of your game, the weight will come. lol
    You're gorgeous and you can do this!
    :)

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  31. I struggle with this all the time. In the mornings I tell myself I will go to the gym that day and then by the end of the day I am so tired that I just want to go home. Good for you for keeping up with it! I know you will do great! And you are already beautiful, but I understand the urge to want to make yourself feel that way!

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  32. Proud of you for going to the gym! You'll get there!

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  33. I think the hardest thing to grasp is that you didn't put it on over night so no matter how hard you work, it's not coming off overnight. Sounds like you've got a pretty good grasp on it though! Get it girl!!

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  34. I am in the exact same boat with only a year of marriage! It is so hard! I need to be more vigilant about hitting the gym. Thank you so much for the motivation! This was just what I needed to read!

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  35. I'm embarrassed to admit how much I look at old pics of myself and long to look like that again. And it's totally the instant gratification thing that ruins my motivation. If I don't see significant results like right away - I give up. Will you just move in with me and force me to save money & lose weight? K, thanks!

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  36. Go get it girl! My 4 years of marriage have not proven to be the best on my body either, but thankfully it's not too late to do something about it. And P.S. You are beautiful!

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  37. You'll get there Erin! Keep pushing. I wish it could happen overnight :)

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  38. You can do it! That picture/quote is great! I might steal it for myself to help get me back on track too!

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  39. You go sweet girl.. You got this! Now come help to get this hehe...

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  40. Love this post! People can tell you how great you look all the time, but unless you feel great it means nothing! I have struggled with weight issues since high school, to the point it has been unhealthy, but I can finally say although I may not look my best, I feel my best, and eventually my body will get there! 4 years of college drive thrus and pizza put me 40lbs over the weight I wanted to be at, and it has taken a year and half to go back and forth between 12-15lb loss. UGh why do women loose weight so slowly! But keep up the good work, your motivated and thats a great place to be!

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  41. I am right there with you with gaining weight after being married. You are so right. Look at those pictures & I got instant motivation.

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  42. You've got this lady! And it is so true, it's not if it's when, for you and me both!

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  43. You are beautiful just the way you are! But I'm right there with you on wanting to feel better about myself and gain some more self confidence. You got this in the bag girlfriend!

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  44. i feel that in the last 9 months i have really changed as well... what the heck!! our 4 year anny is coming up and what i would give to be "wedding skinny/tan" again! ;)

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